Oh My God! What a boring topic? Boring! It was my first impression when our group had to present about this topic. You know what? I hate history. History made me felt dizzy and sleepy. Oh no!
Our group had to present on how history affects English Language in Malaysia? From our research, I noticed that English Language was introduced by British when they colonized Malay State. At that time, a lot of policies were implemented in Malay State regarding educational system. And, when we talked about education, the status of English Language in Malay State (currently, we called it Malaysia) was also affected. The very first English School, Penang Free School, was introduced and officiated by Sir Francis Light followed by other English medium schools such as Victoria Institution, the oldest school in Kuala Lumpur, and Singapore Free School. From that year onwards, a lot of incidents happened in Malay State. From our research, we could see how Barnes Report, Razak Report, Cheeseman Plan, PPSMI and also MBMMBI affect the status of English in Malaysia.
During presentation of our finding, I felt very nervous. Furthermore, we were running out of time. I had presented my points as fast as the lightning. I hoped that everyone could understand what I was saying. Honestly, I had a very bad stage fright since I was young. I did not have the confidence to speak in front of others. When I was presenting in the class, I had built self confident. Many feedbacks were given to me after I finishing my presentation. Most of the comments are positive but I felt that I did not deserve the positive comments. What made it was very difficult for me to speak English was I was very concern with my grammar. I had the ideas on my mind, but it was very difficult for me to speak it out using English. I was trying my best to speak in English with no grammatical error. Maybe I had very high expectation. Madam Ira said that the more we speak in English, the more we will improve our proficiency in English. Some people may good in writing essay in English but not too good in speaking using English and vice versa. It happened to me too. I was not trying to be proud, but it was the reality. So, from now onwards, I will start to speak and communicate frequently using English so that I could better my English. I realized that I had to improve my proficiency in English. I had to be more serious and improve my pronunciation before I graduate later because I will be English teacher in the future.